its been a while

I find myself always neglecting my blog. My time to just write and hide in a sea of letters and words. It's the only time that you don't really have to make sense if you don't want to, or feel pressured to be something. It's you and letters. Letters that form themselves into words, words with meaning. Meanings that turn into a sense of emotion or feeling, in turn those emotions and feelings turn into action. Before you know it, you are right back at the beginning. A sea of letters and words...it's a cycle that you can't always stop, or want to stop. It's a place that you can let your imagination run. Every single time I always want to write something, I am never even sure what to write. Pressuring myself to be creative and fancy, or write something that intrigues you to read more. So right now, I find myself at a crossroad. I am not really sure what path to take, because I'm scared the one I decide to take, well..it's gonna be the wrong one. I know that life is full of decisions and we can never really take the "wrong" one, but in my head, I just can't help but feel that way. Anyway, I hate the fact that when you begin to grow up, you are constantly faced with the crossroads. Eh, man I am not really a fan right now. It always comes at the time that I think that life is oh, so lovely. So, which one will I take? Still not sure, don't know if I will know before I even decide to take it. All I know, is that I have to chose something. The fear of failure takes over us so many times, it even begins to affect wanting to even make the decision of what path to take. Pretty soon, we don't even want to walk down one.

One day Alice came to a fork in the road and saw a Cheshire cat in a tree.
"which road do i take?" she asked.
"where do you want to go?" was his response.
"i don't know" she replied.
"then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter

I guess that sums everything up.

Lesson learning: each and every one of us has our own unique journey. I shouldn't be comparing my decisions or paths with someone else..I shouldn't be so fearful of the path I take. I know whichever one I chose God will meet me there...