change.

Seems like everything happens all at the same time. All at once things change. You are almost left with no time to think or adjust, you jump right into the movement. Emotions are at a constant state of up and down. You feel like your emotions will never catch up to what reality is. Is there ever a time when things don't change, when nothing moves? Choices to constantly be thankful for the breath of life, sun rising, signifying that a new day has arrived. The sun setting signifying you have completed that day with everything you had...

hope.

It's been so long since I have wanted to even write..the last time I wrote was days after my dad passed away. It's been a little over four months..and as I sit here on Christmas Eve, I can't help but remember. For so long, I put off writing because it was something I loved to do and a characteristic I got after my dad..but the more I thought about it, the more I realized he was my inspiration to write. Today I went to the cemetery and stood before my dad's head stone, it was such a surreal feeling..so many emotions were running through me, I didn't know you could feel so much in a matter of minutes. Sorrow, pain, joy, thankfulness..each emotion I felt brought a memory. I will never forget who he was in my life. No matter how many days, hours, minutes and seconds go by without him...I miss him...love him..but know he is with Jesus, worshipping around His thrown.