Life.

What is life? Is it the air we breathe? Is it the love that fills our hearts? Is it the moments you feel like your five, without a care in the world? Is it the days you just sit and listen? Is it the joy that fills the very depths of our soul? Is is a song we sing? Does it make your heart beat? Is it a picture, a dream? Is it a miracle, hope, pain? Is it contentment? Is life a story we read? Can we feel it? Can we hear it, does it move? What makes it go on? When is it good, when is it bad? When does it end, does it ever end? Where will it take us? What makes it worth living? What is this life to you? Where will you go in this life?

all i need is your love..

Dear Jesus..
Here I am.

a journey with Jesus.

passing through...

Falling right into place...

I find myself sometimes missing the times of sweet simplicity when I could just be in my mom's arms without a care in the world. Oh how those times have come and gone. Now here I am living in Texas, trying to wrap my mind around the whole concept of grocery shopping (pushing a cart) budgeting, paying bills, keeping a planner and a list of "to do's" so I won't forget what the day holds for me. Anyway this morning while I was working, trying to sort everything out, a song played on my computer..and my ears just happened to perk up on a certain part...it went something like this " somehow everything's gonna fall right into place, if we only had a way to make it all fall faster everyday". I began to ponder these lyrics and came to the realization that this is where my life is at right now. Especially when it came to new responsibilities, a new "job" and a new home.. somehow everything was going to fall right into place. Although there have been so many moments when I feel like everything is going the wrong direction or not the way it's supposed to be, I know that actually it is right where it's supposed to be. Needless to say, current lesson that I am learning in my life right now is how to just let things fall into place and let God handle everything (easier said then done, that's for sure). So sometimes simplicty is great, but as I go through life and face different things, I realize that I wouldn't fully appreciate the things I have now, or even be where I am in life.

Application:
Let things fall into place...don't try and put the pieces together on your own.
Always be willing to let God put it all together...
Growing up and pushing shopping carts, isn't always as bad as it seems....

The beauty unknown....

The beauty and suspense of the unknown. In the end we find ourselves wanting more..so we reach into the darkness and pass through the open door. Through the open door we walk through so blind, but something inside us yearns, keeps us wanting more. The beauty that awaits us, to open up our eyes. What will the beauty unveil? Will we find ourselves reaching again? Will another door await? Will it open our hearts? Will the beauty in our hearts be awakened? Will we risk this? Will we reach into the darkness?

dirty and left out..

As I sit here and contemplate where to even begin, a song begins to play in the background. I am reminded of how much I just don't even deserve Christ's love and grace but yet, He loves me, over and over, with every single failure and mistake. Never once has His love for me changed and He has never left my side. I have left His side so many times, and and thought life was all about me and what I could do for me. 6 months ago I thought that everything in my world had been turned upside down, but little did I know not only would my life turn upside down, my life would completely change. My journey began June 29,2008 when I moved to Tyler, Texas to attend a Discipleship Training School. I had no idea what God would do in my life and to be honest I was extremely scared...first of all leaving home, and all the comforts of home was already stepping out of my box, then throw in moving to another state for 5 months. A million questions ran through my head, was this really what I was called to do? Uh God, are you sure about this? Texas? Cowboys? What in the world? Some nights I would even think about not going at all but something would always draw me back to that place of peace and once again surrendering myself to God and His plan for me. Moving to Texas has been one of the most challenging yet rewarding things that has ever happened to me. To be completely honest there were times that I wanted to just pack my bags and take the easy way out. Well Texas was the place that God wanted me to be, and obviously I stayed the whole 5 months. I am so thankful that I stayed, I learned so much just about myself, and how to just have a personal and intimate relationship with Him. It wasn't DTS that necessarily changed me, but taking the challenge that God had for me and obeying...so many lessons were learned..so much uprooting and growth took place while being there, and a solid foundation that cannot be broken was built.

Application:

Sometimes God is gonna call us to do "crazy" uncomfortable things..(like calling you to Texas)but that is when He will meet us, show us His power. If we only did things that we liked and were comfortable in, we would never grow and learn. Never be afraid to allow God to use us, no matter what it takes.

Jesus, Jesus, There's something about your name Master, savior, Jesus I've been dirtier than you wanna know I've left earlier than you'll ever know