dirty and left out..

As I sit here and contemplate where to even begin, a song begins to play in the background. I am reminded of how much I just don't even deserve Christ's love and grace but yet, He loves me, over and over, with every single failure and mistake. Never once has His love for me changed and He has never left my side. I have left His side so many times, and and thought life was all about me and what I could do for me. 6 months ago I thought that everything in my world had been turned upside down, but little did I know not only would my life turn upside down, my life would completely change. My journey began June 29,2008 when I moved to Tyler, Texas to attend a Discipleship Training School. I had no idea what God would do in my life and to be honest I was extremely scared...first of all leaving home, and all the comforts of home was already stepping out of my box, then throw in moving to another state for 5 months. A million questions ran through my head, was this really what I was called to do? Uh God, are you sure about this? Texas? Cowboys? What in the world? Some nights I would even think about not going at all but something would always draw me back to that place of peace and once again surrendering myself to God and His plan for me. Moving to Texas has been one of the most challenging yet rewarding things that has ever happened to me. To be completely honest there were times that I wanted to just pack my bags and take the easy way out. Well Texas was the place that God wanted me to be, and obviously I stayed the whole 5 months. I am so thankful that I stayed, I learned so much just about myself, and how to just have a personal and intimate relationship with Him. It wasn't DTS that necessarily changed me, but taking the challenge that God had for me and obeying...so many lessons were learned..so much uprooting and growth took place while being there, and a solid foundation that cannot be broken was built.

Application:

Sometimes God is gonna call us to do "crazy" uncomfortable things..(like calling you to Texas)but that is when He will meet us, show us His power. If we only did things that we liked and were comfortable in, we would never grow and learn. Never be afraid to allow God to use us, no matter what it takes.

Jesus, Jesus, There's something about your name Master, savior, Jesus I've been dirtier than you wanna know I've left earlier than you'll ever know